My Baby Girl,
Today you turn 10, a decade old. As I look at you, I see the baby face that I gave birth to and admire the preteen beauty you are now. I am not sure when it actually happened, when you got to this point that toys were no longer an “in” thing for you, that make-up tutorials and Minecraft tutorials were now cool. I am not sure when you decided to stop playing with My Little Pony, Barbie, and American Girl Dolls. Ten years, they just flew by. As I reflect on these stages of infancy and young childhood that I will never experience with you again, I want you to know a few things and keep them in your mind as you get older:
Stay Kind – Kindness is everything. You really do need to treat people how you would like to be treated. As you make fun of someone for the outfit they are wearing (and you will), remember that they are owning their style just like you own yours. Remember they are human too and no one deserves to be made fun of. Being kind opens up doors to future opportunities. No one wants to hire a rude person.
Be Your Unique Self – You will fall into peer pressure. I have not noticed anyone who hasn’t at one point in time. Please remember that you are the only you there will ever be. Exploit that. Show your style and your personality. Your friends like you because of who you are. If they are asking you to change or to do something you don’t want to do and threaten your friendship because of it, then they were never your friends to begin with.
Hold On To Your Imagination – Tether this one to your heart. As we age and become adults, our imaginations tend to dwindle. When I was younger, I was an avid story and poetry writer. Then adulthood kicked in… work, bills, getting married, having a child… I lost a piece of me. I lost my imagination. It took falling into a black abyss of depression and anxiety to get that back and at this age, it isn’t nearly as strong as it was. Crazy glue your creativeness to yourself. Don’t ever lose that. It is what makes life interesting.
Keep Dreaming – Always aim to achieve your dreams and goals. It may not be a quick process but never decide to let go. You have seen me achieve my dream of becoming a published writer with being a contributor to two published collections. You see me currently writing my own book… a book that has been in the process for years but I am not giving up. Do not let others tell you to quit dreaming. They are not living within you. You are capable of anything you put your mind to.
Challenge Yourself – Do not take the easy way out on everything you do. Strive to be as good as you can be. Try to read those novels in high school and bypass the Cliff Notes, you will be surprised at all that is in the actual novel. You do not need to strive to be valedictorian, just try to be the best YOU can be. Challenge yourself by drawing more, writing more, reading just one more page. You won’t regret it.
Loyalty Is A Blessing And A Curse – Always try to remain loyal to your friends and family, the ones that have your back, the ones that love you “to infinity and beyond”. Loyalty is a tremendous gift but, it can backfire on you. Just be aware. You may put out way more than you will receive in certain relationships.
Remember Empathy – Empaths are rare. To truly be empathetic to a person is to “walk in their shoes”. Everyone is going through something. It could be a physical illness such as cancer, a mental illness such as depression, neglect, prejudice, etc. No one, I mean, no one’s life is easy even if it seems like it. I am glad that I passed on this gift of empathy to you. Keep using it in all situations, but try hard to not let it stick with you for long periods of time. Once you feel empathy for a person or a group of people, acknowledge it, digest it, and then do not dwell on it. It can take over your mind and cause you depression and grief.
Not All Friendships Last – Friendships can end due to many reasons. Sometimes you may have said or done something and sometimes a friend may have offended you. Honestly, most friendships that end is just from the simple fact that friends can grow apart. Schedules get busy. Common things get sparse. It happens, and baby, it hurts. There will be a grieving process to mourn the end of a friendship. You’ll go through the stages of denial, disbelief, depression… and eventually, acceptance. What’s important is to realize that they were in your life for a reason. It may have been the extra shoulder you needed, or the ear you lent them. Understand that although you feel like it ended because of you, it most likely didn’t. With these friendship deaths, there are strengths. Friends you’ve had for years, decades, who are there for you. Friends you may not see or speak to often but when you do, it’s like you were never apart. Hold on to them.
Common Sense Is Just As Important As Book Smarts – Always aim to be the best student you can be but that is in two fields in life, school, and common sense. Listen to your instincts. Sometimes common sense matters more than what you may have learned in class.
Love Unconditionally – Always let love in. It can be in the form of your father and I loving you, you loving your friends and them loving you back, finding your future spouse, love for your future children and love for a pet. If you have every really processed movies, you will realize love conquers all and it does. Love is what saved Harry from Voldemort. Love is what let Anna and Elsa take back their kingdom. Love is what brings Darth Vader back from the Dark Side to the Jedis. Love is what makes us live and want to live. There is always someone out there that loves you.
I know I have told you most of these things before, but I want you to understand all of them. You are getting to a point in your life where you will not listen to me anymore (or at least for a few years). You will think you know everything and Mommy and Daddy know nothing. I have been there. Your father has been there too. But you know what? After those years of being “above all” you will come to treasure everything your parents told you. You will read this letter and know exactly where Mommy was coming from. Please process these now and keep them with you. Know that I see you, I see the strong, silly, sassy, smart girl you are. I see your beauty, inside and out. I can see what you are capable of.
You are a beautiful and unique young lady. You are you.