Happy 3rd Birthday Tyler!!! (Letting Go…)

My Little Boy,

Today you turn 3. I used to dwell on all the things that went wrong, blaming myself for everything and ultimately living in the past. But, beating myself up is not something that should be done on a happy occasion such as your 3rd Birthday. Instead, I am going to think of all the happy times we had when you were here and how much you grew.

You learned to talk with us becoming quite a chatterbox by the time you left. Phrases such as “Coffee Time”, “Penguin, Penguin, Snowman”, “Christmas Tree”, “It’s A Mommy” still linger in my head. You slept in a big boy bed. You began to eat food… this is a biggie! No more caloric shakes. You also began to reject foods like a typical toddler. You learned to love and play and be the boy you should be. You have made such an impact on my life. You will always remain in my heart.

So on a great day like today, I wish you all the happiness in the world and all the love a person can have because you are a special little boy who deserves everything. Although I can picture a Blues Clues Birthday Party in my head that will never be, I know somewhere you are having a great celebration.

Sophia, Daddy and I decided to throw you a little celebration of our own, what we could do… to let go of the past and wish you a bright future. We each released a balloon with our own wish for you on it in hopes that it will get to you.