“#MeditateOnThis…”

“Hormonal changes during and after pregnancy are NORMAL. Mood changes are NORMAL. Meditation helps. Prayer helps. Nutritional support helps. Love helps.” – Marianne Williamson Marianne Williamson, author and spiritual leader, caused quite a commotion last week in the Postpartum Community.  I, honestly, was oblivious to this until I read a Facebook post from Postpartum Progress’ … [Read more…]

Hope…

Last night I had a dream.  This dreams stands out to me because ever since starting Lunesta more than a month ago, I haven’t been able to recall any of my dreams the following morning.  I sleep and I sleep deeply.  But last night was different.  As I slept deeply, my mind wandered and delved … [Read more…]

Baby Envy…

scroll, scroll, scroll… “Aw, what an adorable newborn baby.  Love the name.  Just want to pinch those cheeks and cuddle with it.” scroll, scroll, scroll… “Look, so-and-so is pregnant!  Awesome!  Congrats on baby #3!” scroll, scroll, scroll… Everyday.  Everyday I scroll through hundreds of posts and see an abundant amount of my friends getting pregnant with their … [Read more…]

Mortality…

I’ve always seen my parents as these immortal beings even though logically I know everyone is dying from the day they are born.  Somehow I never related death to them.  Daily, I read the Obituaries in the paper, lingering on those who are my parents age slightly longer.  “My parents are still alive.  They are … [Read more…]

Deep Breath In…

For the last two weeks, I have been doing really well.  Lunesta has cured my insomnia and now most nights I am tired and dozing before I even take the Lunesta.  I have increased my physical workouts these two weeks to include more than just walking at lunch when the weather decides to be anti-winter, which … [Read more…]

Letting Go…

New Year’s Eve… A time of reflection of the year that is about to end and the time to make promises or resolutions to the year about to start.  What do you see when you stand and look in the mirror?  The reflection of yourself?  Is it a positive or negative reflection?  As I stood … [Read more…]

Happy Holidays…

I’ve seen countless articles this week discussing grieving during the holidays, depression during the holidays… What should be a happy time of year, for me, is something I wish I could sleep through.  I know, how could I say that?!  I have a child who still believes in Santa.  Heck, she believes that Stella the … [Read more…]

An Open Letter To My In-Laws…

Dear Parents I Married Into, I have been a part of your life for almost 20 years now, meeting your son when we were just teenagers working our first jobs.  Over 11 years ago, we married.  I have always taken my vows seriously and have seen your son go through several outpatient surgeries and his … [Read more…]

The Room Of Requirement (Part 1)…

I’ve recently started a new form of therapy switching from my years of CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) to EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) Therapy.  This is a whole new ballgame.  Where CBT would try to train me to constantly think positively about myself by saying positive things into a mirror, EMDR is actually tricking … [Read more…]